To Distract Me

I wanted a day off
from everything else
I wanted focus
not wasted time
I didn’t need to feel held
but feel near enough
to sense some warmth
not steal it all
not trade my chill
no one wants
to be so so vacant
yet here is my empty hand
in that moment
our connection
soft as it was
got lost in clenched fingers
that ended in fists
stuffed in our pockets
feeling loose change
and a random twisted dollar
wanting something more
like a hand
to hold mine
or an interesting whispered word
to distract me.

Judith A. Sears
©11/15/2018